The ocean

Ok so I've succomed to blogging about mushy, emotional, lovey rubbish but I feel I must express.

The ocean is an unforgiving, cold and dangerous place to be. The water tastes bitter and many have lost their souls to it. If you dare venture into its vast and beautiful scenery, be prepared to come out a changed man.
Love is like this ocean, bitter and cold, ever changing and unexpected. Although I have never experienced love (as much as i have never experienced the vast open ocean), I know it is out there and has an internal magnetism like the great force of nature that is the ocean.

During the past couple of months I have experienced a sample of this ocean. My emotions have been high; like the waves, unstoppable and powerful, but also low and calm; lying in wait for the next rush.
Having emotions for someone is difficult, it clouds your judgement, your sense of self and makes you act differently.
I now find myself single, lonely and without love. For all the years I have been content with life solitary, having a small taste of the salty sea makes me want even more. Though I know it will make me sick; I can't help but remembering how addictive that water tastes.
For all my supposed good looks and witty charm, it is worth nothing to have someone lying by my side in the morning, or greeting me as I come home from work. Someone who can touch and hold me, understand me and confirm that I am worth something. That I am not fast food, simple, cheap but ultimately not good in the long term.
Have you ever felt so alone that everyone else seems to be in pairs? Everyone holding hands walking down the street, couples you see through a restaurant window staring into each others eyes. Even the god damn birds in the trees are in love.

I will keep searching for that one person, love doesn't find you, it must be found.